Saturday, December 5, 2009
Oh my goodness. I feel so ashamed. I can't believe how long it's been since I posted, and even worse since I did any art.
I don't know what got into me, but right after finishing that large gallery piece and the painting for my mom, I kinda checked out of the art world.
In fact, I can't seem to get back in. I have zero motivation, and It's really weird, because it seems like things were just starting to go well for me art wise, and for some reason, the fire went out.
Does this sound familar at all to anyone? I keep feeling so guilty for not wanting to go and create, which of course makes things worse. I even try flipping through magazines, for inspiration, but it doesn't help.
I think this whole thing started with my teeth. I know that sounds weird, but the day after my mom's painting was done, I came down with some serious tooth pain, which led me to seek a dentist, and find out I need a root canal. Well money isn't flowing that easily, so I decided to wait a bit.
I went for two weeks of serious agony, where the only thing I could do was stare at my computer screen, and watch my screen saver bubbles. Meds wouldn't touch the pain, and I seriously considered more than a few times, of pulling the tooth out with pliers.
Luckily after two weeks, the pain disappeared and I've pretty much been fine ever since. But the problem is, even though I feel better, I have no desire to do my art now. Arggggh! It's frustrating.
In fact, I've been addicted to the food channel lately, and I all I can think about is cooking now. Btw this is not a good addiction to have, as now I find I'm about 4 times as hungry as usual watching these shows. Crazy!
Anyway, this picture you see now, is a 5x7 collage on canvas I did right before Halloween. It's actually hanging in the gallery now with 6 other 5x7's for their Gift of Art show, but honestly I don't know that I really want to sell it.
I priced all my pieces high partly because of the commission the gallery takes, and partly because I won't be at all sad, If I get to bring it back home at the end of the month. I mean really, the wall looks kinda empty without it. This kind of attitude gives me pause. What kind of artist am I anyway? Isn't selling your work, supposed to be something we all strive for?
Okay so you can see, I'm in a serious rut here, and I need to get out fast. I do not want to stop creating my art, because I know how much I love it when I do it, but I just can't seem to pick up that darn paint brush. Help!! Please tell me this is normal....